Thursday, October 29, 2009

How do you blog when you're in limbo?

I keep trying to come up with things to blog about and I can't! Honestly, I think I've entered the numb stage of the infertility process. (Is there normally a numb stage? I don't know.) Ironically, I couldn't wait to sit down and have a real heart-to-heart with my husband about what are next steps were going to be so we could move forward, and as soon as we had the talk I ground to a halt.

Maybe it's because our two main options require a lot of research? And neither one is something we would be able to jump into right away? I'm really not sure. I'm also going to go in for testing again soon to see if anything's changed with my girly bits, but I'm not overly optimistic. Which is rather ironic, since I've spent most of my life acting like it's my job to look on the bright side of things.

So, there's my non-update update. Try not to get too excited, okay? My CPR certification is woefully out of date, and I wouldn't want to have to try to resuscitate anyone.

If you're lucky, tomorrow I'll tell you about the Ghost Play I'm going to be in on Halloween!


Shannon said...

I think after you get any kind of news about infertility, there is that numbness that settles in. I bet it will take some time to continue to digest and formulate a plan. Once you're at that point, you can have some optimism about whats going on.

Im waiting for info on the Ghost Play, spill it please :)

gringa78 said...

Being in limbo is hard...I agree with Shan, it's had to be optimistic without a plan. as much as the IF process wore me down, to the point that I never thought I'd be truly happy again, when a new plan was in place, hope came matter what. I've been thinking about you and I'm here for you whenever.

Elisa said...

Shan and Leah said it best...i'll simply add that i love you so much!

Elisa said...

Shan and Leah said it best...i'll simply add that i love you so much!