Well, it took two weeks and six phone calls, but I finally got my husband's SA results. Normal. It's the first good news we've gotten in this whole process. I can breathe a big sigh of relief, but I also feel unexpectedly guilty.
I know I'm six years older than he is, and a woman's age has much more impact on fertility anyway, so honestly it's not shocking that I'm the problem. But it does make me feel bad, in some "I know there's nothing I can do about it, but I still feel like crap" kind of way.
He keeps reminding me that we're in this together. I'm very lucky to have him. And I know I wouldn't blame him had things turned out differently.
I am just going to focus on the fact that we only have to fix me, and we're lucky in that respect. I know there are a lot of couples out there dealing with IF on both sides, and they would be thrilled to get a Normal on an SA.
Now if I can just give his swimmers something to aim for, we might be in business!
8 months ago