I keep waking up between 2:30 and 3:30 in the morning. And once I'm awake, I'm thinking. How are the embies doing? Is this going to work? What if it doesn't work? Will there be any to freeze? How on earth am I going to go through the transfer with a full bladder?
This last one is the one that's really getting me. I've had two surgical procedures in the last six months, and the worst part is my bladder. This summer during pre-op I was hooked up to an IV wearing nothing but a hospital gown and made my way to the bathroom about five times in an hour, pulling my little tower behind me. You see, I not only have a nervous bladder, I have a weak bladder. Thank you, endometriosis.
Waiting for my egg retrieval on Tuesday (again hooked up to an IV and wearing only slightly more than nothing), I felt like I had to pee constantly. Two minutes after getting back in bed, my bladder was telling me I had to go again. Now, I hadn't had any liquids since midnight the night before, so I didn't actually have to go. But you try to tell my bladder that!
So, Sunday I'm supposed to have a full bladder for the procedure. I'm honestly more worried about that than the entire rest of the process.
For now, I guess I'll continue waking up in the middle of the night to think. And pee.
1 week ago